"K lo k tu taba haciendo?" - typical dominican phrases reach my ears and that makes me smile, i missed those people and the weird spanish they speak. One month has passed very fast though - when you have a lot of new impressions and you are busy time flies. Deep inside i was hoping so much to have this "i want to come back" feeling", then it would be way easier to make the desicion. Not that strong, but i finally felt it, in a way i am happy to come back(home). After you start traveling the word "home" becomes something abstract, like we talked with Patricia yesterday - to some extend we are homeless. Not that we don't have a roof and a place to sleep, but that it is hard to define where we belong.
It was weird to be in Russia again, so many changes, so different from what i saw 1,5 years ago. Someone got married, Someone lost the loved ones, Someone gave a start to the new life, Someone is making career, Someone is struggling with changes, Someone got to jail... different stories, different attitudes to the same life situations, same people, inside they've never changed.
I needed this trip to refresh my life, like you refresh the web browser when the page doesn't show you all the info and pictures. Now i see the picture more clear, i have more life in me, i have my eyes shining again. I am ready to come back and take the challange( bavarohostel.com ), i am ready to wait for a little while, cuz now when i plan anything it starts with "we", not with "i". I have seen now how my friends live, we are more or less at the same "searching for something" stage. Sometimes it is difficult, you might be lost because you don't know what you really want from life, but all in all it is pretty interesting, you keep trying new things and learn a lot. Now i know a bit more what to look for - i still don't know what exactly i would like to do, but i know that i would love to live in the place where i will go to the street and every day say "omg, it is so fucking beautiful!".
We'll figure it out, right?
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